a first

There's always a first. That's what they all say. They? Yeah, everyone.

Since water in my area was not disrupted, I went ahead with my plan to perfect the Focaccia and try another muffin.

 Crunchy Peanut Butter Chocolate Chip Muffin

 Focaccia with ExtraVirginOliveOil with BalsamicVinegar

Everything went well. I made them. I felt proud of myself. I felt accomplished.

But something was not right. I had never felt so horrible after baking. I do enjoy baking, really I do. But today was just different. Today just doesn't seem right. Baking does help me take my mind off and I always feel better after that but not today.

Today, maybe I shouldn't had baked. Or maybe I should, as I've already had.

Cause there's always a first. A first to feel sad even when you do the thing you love most, can't help you to feel good at all..

muffins

After contemplating for i-have-no-idea-how-long, I decided to move my lazy bum and start with my long awaited muffin.

I actually had a dream that I was baking carrot cake. It's quite awesome though, you dream something and then...you actually bake in the end. (: So, I took out the butter in the morning so it'll be soft. Turns out I had to go out, driving peeps around. As I was driving, I realised I didn't have cheese at home for the cream cheese topping. Planned to go to BakeWithYen BUT the heat was literally unbearable. Headed home to find an alternative and..tingtingtingting I remembered the long awaited apple muffin.

BUUUUUTTT i didn't have blueberries to go with the recipe. So I combined two different recipes. :D the one with walnuts and I changed blueberries to cranberries and.....

ta-daa. okay the picture is horrendous.

but i'm glad i did bake this after all (: