Another month has passed and now we're entering into the mid-year. Many things had happened in the past few months. Somethings that surprises me much. Others are encouraging.
As I obverse some people, it gave me time and opportunity to take a step back from everything and to learn from their so-called-mistakes. It helped me to remember that others do take notice of every single thing we do; be it the good or the bad. Reminded me to also look at things from a different perspective.
Things in life has taken a whole new road altogether. Believing that there's a greater purpose in life because I have Him!life is truly exciting with God (:
Showing posts with label experience. Show all posts
Showing posts with label experience. Show all posts
Friday, June 1, 2012
Monday, January 16, 2012
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I do miss morning prayer meets. the alarm or human alarm trying to wake me up. the getting outta the house so early till my security guard at my place got ready to open the gate during those mornings. the driving in the super early mornings, thinking whether to run the red light. the encouragement when you see so many people in the auditorium. the worship. the sermon. the praying. the breakfast and catch ups. (:
While this has ended, its time to find the time to spend that time with Him. I realized that as I commit my job/business to Him, He did answer my prayers. I'm glad that although I'm really busy baking, that at least there's my source of income coming in.
Yesterday's prayer meet ended with Psalm 134 which talks about worship. And I do long to get lost when I worship. Its like I get preoccupied with Him and Him only to find there's freedom, peace and joy. It was a great and timely reminder. All of the mornings actually. I'm still struggling in an area. The area of surrender EVERYTHING to Him. I just can't and find it really, really, really hard to do so. I can surrender all, except one part, an important part, a person in my life. Tears just kept rolling down. but i still can't. maybe i just need time. Or a change of mindset.
Its been more than four years but it still feels like yesterday. Them tears still felt fresh. The memory starts playing back. It felt strange to share with a cell member, and trying to keep that water works. But i did share anyways. and it felt kinda good. maybe cause it depends on the person i share it with. It hasn't been easy as I find myself explaining my self/situation every week to different people. I get different responses. I have to deal with my emotions from their responses and I find myself really drained from dealing with my emotions. I'm not too sure how long this is gonna take. The healing part. The overcoming part.
I'm just tired of putting up a face. It was really hard to put up with a face pretending everything is alright. but then again, if i hadn't pretend, I wouldn't want everyone asking why I'm not okay. -.-
So I guess, it still goes back to getting closer with Him. Setting things right with Him. and the part which I'm not ready to do, Surrender EVERYTHING to Him
While this has ended, its time to find the time to spend that time with Him. I realized that as I commit my job/business to Him, He did answer my prayers. I'm glad that although I'm really busy baking, that at least there's my source of income coming in.
Yesterday's prayer meet ended with Psalm 134 which talks about worship. And I do long to get lost when I worship. Its like I get preoccupied with Him and Him only to find there's freedom, peace and joy. It was a great and timely reminder. All of the mornings actually. I'm still struggling in an area. The area of surrender EVERYTHING to Him. I just can't and find it really, really, really hard to do so. I can surrender all, except one part, an important part, a person in my life. Tears just kept rolling down. but i still can't. maybe i just need time. Or a change of mindset.
Its been more than four years but it still feels like yesterday. Them tears still felt fresh. The memory starts playing back. It felt strange to share with a cell member, and trying to keep that water works. But i did share anyways. and it felt kinda good. maybe cause it depends on the person i share it with. It hasn't been easy as I find myself explaining my self/situation every week to different people. I get different responses. I have to deal with my emotions from their responses and I find myself really drained from dealing with my emotions. I'm not too sure how long this is gonna take. The healing part. The overcoming part.
I'm just tired of putting up a face. It was really hard to put up with a face pretending everything is alright. but then again, if i hadn't pretend, I wouldn't want everyone asking why I'm not okay. -.-
So I guess, it still goes back to getting closer with Him. Setting things right with Him. and the part which I'm not ready to do, Surrender EVERYTHING to Him
Monday, May 9, 2011
what hell is like.
Last night, I was pouring some hot water for my mum and the vapour was too hot that I dropped whatever I was holding and...yeap, hot stuffs landed on my feet!! Jumped, screamed! hop to the toilet. (lucky my kitchen is so near the toilet) mum came running after hearing me scream and panicked not knowing what to do. I too was in a state of shock (and pain!) As I could hardly stand/walk with the pain on my right leg, I put the toilet seat cover down and sat on it while turning on a tap which is beside it and, OHMAIGAWD felt like chopping my feet off.
My whole family is known for 'tahan-ing' pain and if we say we're okay, its just a wee lil pain, but if we cry and pain is unbearable, seeing a doctor is a must.
Anyways, I have this facial products that is really effective and it has been tested for people with burn marks. Results are unbelievable! I only thought of applying some VitaminE cream or Aloe Vera (since they are growing like a forest at my balcony) but my mum took that and gave it to me. Seriously, I was literally crying applying it on my feet not because its painful but because its kinda expensive to apply on my feet!!!!
As it was kinda late, and I was really tired from all the cooking for Mothers' Day, I fell asleep and I didn't feel any pain. ThankGod this morning, the redness has reduced! I feet looks normal without any burn marks whatsoever! :D
Looking back, I am reminded how we find or hear people having hell experience, them going there and coming back sharing with people that it is real. That you literally burn there. That they see tons of people they used to know dear and from afar. How they suffer there. How hot it is. Well, I got to experience like 0.00000001% of it. It reminded me that, I would never wanna go there!
My whole family is known for 'tahan-ing' pain and if we say we're okay, its just a wee lil pain, but if we cry and pain is unbearable, seeing a doctor is a must.
Anyways, I have this facial products that is really effective and it has been tested for people with burn marks. Results are unbelievable! I only thought of applying some VitaminE cream or Aloe Vera (since they are growing like a forest at my balcony) but my mum took that and gave it to me. Seriously, I was literally crying applying it on my feet not because its painful but because its kinda expensive to apply on my feet!!!!
As it was kinda late, and I was really tired from all the cooking for Mothers' Day, I fell asleep and I didn't feel any pain. ThankGod this morning, the redness has reduced! I feet looks normal without any burn marks whatsoever! :D
Looking back, I am reminded how we find or hear people having hell experience, them going there and coming back sharing with people that it is real. That you literally burn there. That they see tons of people they used to know dear and from afar. How they suffer there. How hot it is. Well, I got to experience like 0.00000001% of it. It reminded me that, I would never wanna go there!
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