Day Five - Your Dreams
I think, finding a boyfriend, marrying the amazing guy, starting a family and all those don't count. I mean they are dreams, the kind every girl dreams of, but honestly, those can be found easily in fairy tales and movies only. The perfect ones i mean.
So here goes.
Dear DreamS
One of my dreams that I have been dreaming since highschool days, yes that long, is to open a recording studio. If not that, a music school with a recording studio. Possibly set up a Record Company too. Yes, I know its super expensive to open one with all the equipments that Ive to buy, the amount of sound pads I've to purchase to sound proof the sounds, the awesome instruments, etc, etc. And yes, I wanted to study Sound Engineering so I could learn all the tricks and all BUT my piano teacher was against it ( i hope he's not reading this) He told my mum I shouldn't. And she said no. My dad was still okay with it as he's in the engineering field BUT one of his friend who has a music business and graduated from Sound Engineering told him there's a slim chance for me, since imma girl and....POOF there went my dream of studying that. BUT, it still didn't kill my dream of opening one. I'm still dreaming okay!
since the letter said dreams, there are supposed to be more than one?
Dream number two.
To have my own Cafe. I've not come up with any names or whatsoever. I have some sort of menu written down. That includes, i can't tell you now. :P I intend to have a small area for 'mike nite' or just have some cool friends performing at certain nights. Probably name it CozyCorner or something but i think that name has already been taken. booo. The interior probably be those cozy kind. NOt too bright colours but just nice and warm. Cushions? (:
Another dream.
To at least learn how to swim. hmm i think this should be in the to-do list but having that in that kinda list never ever happened so one can learn to dream how to swim and then eventually swim magically right? hah
well, a girl can dream tons.
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
Monday, May 23, 2011
Day Four
Day Four - Your Sibling
ah i shall write to the older one since we are close. wait, we are right? hehe
Dear Ben,
I had all the attention in the world for three years or so. When mum had you, there were complications and that took the attention from me. I had the teevee all to myself watching Disney cartoons like a zillion times. I was a proud sister when you came into the world but you didn't seem to like me much. Judging from the kiddo photos, whenever i carried you, you cried. tsk. We had our fun times playing around, sort of. I obviously didn't like it when you were chasing me like a mad monkey trying to bite me. Seriously, what were you thinking?
Years flew by and obviously, we got older. I was so pissed whenever I used to hang out with my friends after PMR and you complained I could go out more than you. hello, i is four years older laaaaa. Anyways, we somehow pass thru that stage.
Now that you're all grown up, somewhat, its easier to talk to you. I'm glad that some stuffs you chose to share with me. and yeap, we do have our secrets together. shhhhhh. I'm proud to call you my partner in crime. muahahahah. love you to bits, ben. :D
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Glad I'm in the comfort of my home right now. The past two weeks has been a constant series of important things to do. hmm, everything's important!. hahaha.
The past two weeks, I had been arranging music, recording the piano parts, keyboard - strings, and some other effects, some guitars and trying some bass, some aunty's voice, and of course, mine. Note to self : Make sure the writer agrees with the kind of music, beat, tempo, genre, you gonna play for their song. Super long process recording the aunty's song. another thing, after these non-stop time of trying to get it done properly, omg, no wonder, I'm more of a musician than singer. I tried recording my voice one of the days and, nah, I had been using my fake voice, or so they claim. Lower one key, recorded the instruments again and, I spent four hours singing, trying to get it right and recording it. I almost cried. sighhhhhhhh. ThankGod for awesome friend to cheer me up after that. :D
so yeap, just a lil update, since we're not raptured yet. oh wait, no right? hehehe.
ah i shall write to the older one since we are close. wait, we are right? hehe
Dear Ben,
I had all the attention in the world for three years or so. When mum had you, there were complications and that took the attention from me. I had the teevee all to myself watching Disney cartoons like a zillion times. I was a proud sister when you came into the world but you didn't seem to like me much. Judging from the kiddo photos, whenever i carried you, you cried. tsk. We had our fun times playing around, sort of. I obviously didn't like it when you were chasing me like a mad monkey trying to bite me. Seriously, what were you thinking?
Years flew by and obviously, we got older. I was so pissed whenever I used to hang out with my friends after PMR and you complained I could go out more than you. hello, i is four years older laaaaa. Anyways, we somehow pass thru that stage.
Now that you're all grown up, somewhat, its easier to talk to you. I'm glad that some stuffs you chose to share with me. and yeap, we do have our secrets together. shhhhhh. I'm proud to call you my partner in crime. muahahahah. love you to bits, ben. :D
*************************************
Glad I'm in the comfort of my home right now. The past two weeks has been a constant series of important things to do. hmm, everything's important!. hahaha.
The past two weeks, I had been arranging music, recording the piano parts, keyboard - strings, and some other effects, some guitars and trying some bass, some aunty's voice, and of course, mine. Note to self : Make sure the writer agrees with the kind of music, beat, tempo, genre, you gonna play for their song. Super long process recording the aunty's song. another thing, after these non-stop time of trying to get it done properly, omg, no wonder, I'm more of a musician than singer. I tried recording my voice one of the days and, nah, I had been using my fake voice, or so they claim. Lower one key, recorded the instruments again and, I spent four hours singing, trying to get it right and recording it. I almost cried. sighhhhhhhh. ThankGod for awesome friend to cheer me up after that. :D
so yeap, just a lil update, since we're not raptured yet. oh wait, no right? hehehe.
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
Day Three
Day Three - Your Parents.
Since its parents, I shall combine both in one letter.
I'm glad both of you brought me into this world. I was stubborn from birth. heh. I have no idea how calm you both were when I came into the world two days late. I know that both of you were super excited to see me. The pictures I see now, both of you were and still are proud parents!
Like any other families, we do have our ups and downs. I'm thankful that in our most lowest moments, we still stick to each other and help each other out.
We have our fair shares of trips around the country or just hanging out at our usual place or finding new places. Although we don't need to go, visit, the most expensive places and stay in those hotels, we had and incredible time appreciating the times we have with each other.
I never thought that with all that I've put you through, that you would still forgive me of all the things that I've done. I can never comprehend that. Just like I'm still amazed at how HE could forgive me. Through all these that had happened, we know that we would want things differently. Bringing me up differently, somehow. Planning ahead differently. Venturing in things differently. Having the life that we always wanted. Having the things that we want that could turn into needs. But we also know, that we wouldn't be this close if things didn't happened this way. Honestly, sometimes I wish that things wouldn't have gone this way. That this isn't the road that we should be taking. That you should be having the time of your lives rather than worrying too much for me.
At times, I'm extremely upset whenever anyone comes up to you and scolds you for the way you've brought me up. For the choices I've made to be the person I am. ( which they think these decisions are yours) Or just speaking negativity in your lives. I am truly upset because they are no better parents than you. Seriously, their kids are worst than me. Just that they don't know that. But then again, who am I to judge or say these things to them right? The other reason I'm upset because, these statements, comments, brings your spirit down and question your authorities as parents over me. With that, I have to endure that ever-long-emotional-down period. That I have to remind you that IT IS MY decisions, that both of you didn't brain wash me to make those decisions. That we have other better things to do than feel that way. Honestly, I hate these moments. [Some adults should get a life. Stop talking about my family and start looking deep in yours. Yes, i know some of you Google my name and read my blog. Seriously, get a life. ]
I am glad that both of you are apart of this new journey of mine. That you don't get to miss the little details of my life with the little guy. With all the tender love and care both of you had showered me with, I'm eternally indebted to the both of you. me love the both of you. <3
Since its parents, I shall combine both in one letter.
I'm glad both of you brought me into this world. I was stubborn from birth. heh. I have no idea how calm you both were when I came into the world two days late. I know that both of you were super excited to see me. The pictures I see now, both of you were and still are proud parents!
Like any other families, we do have our ups and downs. I'm thankful that in our most lowest moments, we still stick to each other and help each other out.
We have our fair shares of trips around the country or just hanging out at our usual place or finding new places. Although we don't need to go, visit, the most expensive places and stay in those hotels, we had and incredible time appreciating the times we have with each other.
I never thought that with all that I've put you through, that you would still forgive me of all the things that I've done. I can never comprehend that. Just like I'm still amazed at how HE could forgive me. Through all these that had happened, we know that we would want things differently. Bringing me up differently, somehow. Planning ahead differently. Venturing in things differently. Having the life that we always wanted. Having the things that we want that could turn into needs. But we also know, that we wouldn't be this close if things didn't happened this way. Honestly, sometimes I wish that things wouldn't have gone this way. That this isn't the road that we should be taking. That you should be having the time of your lives rather than worrying too much for me.
At times, I'm extremely upset whenever anyone comes up to you and scolds you for the way you've brought me up. For the choices I've made to be the person I am. ( which they think these decisions are yours) Or just speaking negativity in your lives. I am truly upset because they are no better parents than you. Seriously, their kids are worst than me. Just that they don't know that. But then again, who am I to judge or say these things to them right? The other reason I'm upset because, these statements, comments, brings your spirit down and question your authorities as parents over me. With that, I have to endure that ever-long-emotional-down period. That I have to remind you that IT IS MY decisions, that both of you didn't brain wash me to make those decisions. That we have other better things to do than feel that way. Honestly, I hate these moments. [Some adults should get a life. Stop talking about my family and start looking deep in yours. Yes, i know some of you Google my name and read my blog. Seriously, get a life. ]
I am glad that both of you are apart of this new journey of mine. That you don't get to miss the little details of my life with the little guy. With all the tender love and care both of you had showered me with, I'm eternally indebted to the both of you. me love the both of you. <3
Monday, May 16, 2011
Day Two
Day Two - Your Crush
Hah, this one is super easy! I had laid my eyes on you since i was 13. yeap. Been too long but you ain't still mine, yet. Its been tough seeing you. I could never take my eyes off you. Sounds that you produce are superb! words cannot express how much I need you so badly in my life. With you, and me, we can make thousands envious. One day, soon, I hope, you'd be mine, my dear, KORG synth. (:
Hah, this one is super easy! I had laid my eyes on you since i was 13. yeap. Been too long but you ain't still mine, yet. Its been tough seeing you. I could never take my eyes off you. Sounds that you produce are superb! words cannot express how much I need you so badly in my life. With you, and me, we can make thousands envious. One day, soon, I hope, you'd be mine, my dear, KORG synth. (:
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
Day one
Day One - Your Best Friend.
Dear Best Friend.
I've known you since like forever. It's awesome that our parents have met even wayyy before we were born. I love and miss those days where were would just pop into each others house since we were neighbours. How we would play tons of games; board games, those 'batu seremban', bottle caps ( i still remember we used to get higher levels than guys! ), barbie dolls, dressing ups, hide and seek ( seriously, the house was super small!!!), climbing like spiderman on the door post and tons more. And oh! the time you hide in the refrigerator and close the door when your mum was cleaning it!! How worried everyone was! good times.
Those days are the days I treasure them alot. I'm glad we did spend tons of time even though you moved house. Times where I would try learning to swim, I still can't till today! -.- Times where we would stick up for each other. Times we try sharing the Gospel in primary school, doing some dances we learn at Girls Brigade. Times at Girls Brigade.Times where we would rush for activities like a headless chicken, changing clothes in your dad's van for various classes or just hanging around your house.
Of course there are times where we would bend a few rules. heh. like riding bicycle to places that were off limits, but we were caught by your brother. -.-
Apart from all the good times, we had our share of bad times together. The time where we met a flasher at the playground after school while waiting for your mum. I am thankful that you were there with me. And that you had the courage to scold him and put him to shame! Imagine an eight-year old scolding some sick guy. wow. I'm glad your mum had educated you from young. Without you there, I can't imagine what would had happened to me, or the other children there.
I always admire your boldness in doing things. For standing up for me too, until today! I remembered just last year we were at camp and there was a day where we had to "pay" for our lunch and we shared meals..As I was having sore throat, you told the person in charge to let me eat something else. And the person allowed it!. Later on did we know, it was some kinda test. -.- but still, I felt like I was being saved in a sense.
I admire how your mum had spent that quality time with you and in building you up to who you are today. It's amazing how much time your mum had invested. I bet, her time was not wasted. The values that she has sowed in you, I know deep down, you would do the same for your children someday.
I am grateful that after I had been thru, and not being close with you at a certain point in life, you still choose to be that friend who cares, and never gives up in believing in me. With that, no words can express my gratitude. You, are and always will be that best friend of mine. We did promise to be each others' brides' maid. Let's hope that it'll be someday soon. (:
With all the things and worries we had shared over dinner the other night, I know that somehow, in one way or another, things would work out well. Things are not so simple and easy as it used to be anymore. but thank God, we have each other to help each other in everything.
So here's to many years of friendship to come! love ya!
Me
Dear Best Friend.
I've known you since like forever. It's awesome that our parents have met even wayyy before we were born. I love and miss those days where were would just pop into each others house since we were neighbours. How we would play tons of games; board games, those 'batu seremban', bottle caps ( i still remember we used to get higher levels than guys! ), barbie dolls, dressing ups, hide and seek ( seriously, the house was super small!!!), climbing like spiderman on the door post and tons more. And oh! the time you hide in the refrigerator and close the door when your mum was cleaning it!! How worried everyone was! good times.
Those days are the days I treasure them alot. I'm glad we did spend tons of time even though you moved house. Times where I would try learning to swim, I still can't till today! -.- Times where we would stick up for each other. Times we try sharing the Gospel in primary school, doing some dances we learn at Girls Brigade. Times at Girls Brigade.Times where we would rush for activities like a headless chicken, changing clothes in your dad's van for various classes or just hanging around your house.
Of course there are times where we would bend a few rules. heh. like riding bicycle to places that were off limits, but we were caught by your brother. -.-
Apart from all the good times, we had our share of bad times together. The time where we met a flasher at the playground after school while waiting for your mum. I am thankful that you were there with me. And that you had the courage to scold him and put him to shame! Imagine an eight-year old scolding some sick guy. wow. I'm glad your mum had educated you from young. Without you there, I can't imagine what would had happened to me, or the other children there.
I always admire your boldness in doing things. For standing up for me too, until today! I remembered just last year we were at camp and there was a day where we had to "pay" for our lunch and we shared meals..As I was having sore throat, you told the person in charge to let me eat something else. And the person allowed it!. Later on did we know, it was some kinda test. -.- but still, I felt like I was being saved in a sense.
I admire how your mum had spent that quality time with you and in building you up to who you are today. It's amazing how much time your mum had invested. I bet, her time was not wasted. The values that she has sowed in you, I know deep down, you would do the same for your children someday.
I am grateful that after I had been thru, and not being close with you at a certain point in life, you still choose to be that friend who cares, and never gives up in believing in me. With that, no words can express my gratitude. You, are and always will be that best friend of mine. We did promise to be each others' brides' maid. Let's hope that it'll be someday soon. (:
With all the things and worries we had shared over dinner the other night, I know that somehow, in one way or another, things would work out well. Things are not so simple and easy as it used to be anymore. but thank God, we have each other to help each other in everything.
So here's to many years of friendship to come! love ya!
Me
Thirty day Letter Challenge.
I thought, why not. Not because everyone is doing (some gave up!) but its just for the fun of it! (:
- Day 1 — Your Best Friend
- Day 2 — Your Crush
- Day 3 — Your parents
- Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
- Day 5 — Your dreams
- Day 6 — A stranger
- Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
- Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
- Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
- Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
- Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
- Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
- Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
- Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
- Day 15 — The person you miss the most
- Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
- Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
- Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
- Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
- Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
- Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
- Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
- Day 23 — The last person you kissed
- Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
- Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
- Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
- Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
- Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
- Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
- Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror
Monday, May 9, 2011
what hell is like.
Last night, I was pouring some hot water for my mum and the vapour was too hot that I dropped whatever I was holding and...yeap, hot stuffs landed on my feet!! Jumped, screamed! hop to the toilet. (lucky my kitchen is so near the toilet) mum came running after hearing me scream and panicked not knowing what to do. I too was in a state of shock (and pain!) As I could hardly stand/walk with the pain on my right leg, I put the toilet seat cover down and sat on it while turning on a tap which is beside it and, OHMAIGAWD felt like chopping my feet off.
My whole family is known for 'tahan-ing' pain and if we say we're okay, its just a wee lil pain, but if we cry and pain is unbearable, seeing a doctor is a must.
Anyways, I have this facial products that is really effective and it has been tested for people with burn marks. Results are unbelievable! I only thought of applying some VitaminE cream or Aloe Vera (since they are growing like a forest at my balcony) but my mum took that and gave it to me. Seriously, I was literally crying applying it on my feet not because its painful but because its kinda expensive to apply on my feet!!!!
As it was kinda late, and I was really tired from all the cooking for Mothers' Day, I fell asleep and I didn't feel any pain. ThankGod this morning, the redness has reduced! I feet looks normal without any burn marks whatsoever! :D
Looking back, I am reminded how we find or hear people having hell experience, them going there and coming back sharing with people that it is real. That you literally burn there. That they see tons of people they used to know dear and from afar. How they suffer there. How hot it is. Well, I got to experience like 0.00000001% of it. It reminded me that, I would never wanna go there!
My whole family is known for 'tahan-ing' pain and if we say we're okay, its just a wee lil pain, but if we cry and pain is unbearable, seeing a doctor is a must.
Anyways, I have this facial products that is really effective and it has been tested for people with burn marks. Results are unbelievable! I only thought of applying some VitaminE cream or Aloe Vera (since they are growing like a forest at my balcony) but my mum took that and gave it to me. Seriously, I was literally crying applying it on my feet not because its painful but because its kinda expensive to apply on my feet!!!!
As it was kinda late, and I was really tired from all the cooking for Mothers' Day, I fell asleep and I didn't feel any pain. ThankGod this morning, the redness has reduced! I feet looks normal without any burn marks whatsoever! :D
Looking back, I am reminded how we find or hear people having hell experience, them going there and coming back sharing with people that it is real. That you literally burn there. That they see tons of people they used to know dear and from afar. How they suffer there. How hot it is. Well, I got to experience like 0.00000001% of it. It reminded me that, I would never wanna go there!
Saturday, May 7, 2011
muffins
After contemplating for i-have-no-idea-how-long, I decided to move my lazy bum and start with my long awaited muffin.
I actually had a dream that I was baking carrot cake. It's quite awesome though, you dream something and then...you actually bake in the end. (: So, I took out the butter in the morning so it'll be soft. Turns out I had to go out, driving peeps around. As I was driving, I realised I didn't have cheese at home for the cream cheese topping. Planned to go to BakeWithYen BUT the heat was literally unbearable. Headed home to find an alternative and..tingtingtingting I remembered the long awaited apple muffin.
BUUUUUTTT i didn't have blueberries to go with the recipe. So I combined two different recipes. :D the one with walnuts and I changed blueberries to cranberries and.....
ta-daa. okay the picture is horrendous.
but i'm glad i did bake this after all (:
I actually had a dream that I was baking carrot cake. It's quite awesome though, you dream something and then...you actually bake in the end. (: So, I took out the butter in the morning so it'll be soft. Turns out I had to go out, driving peeps around. As I was driving, I realised I didn't have cheese at home for the cream cheese topping. Planned to go to BakeWithYen BUT the heat was literally unbearable. Headed home to find an alternative and..tingtingtingting I remembered the long awaited apple muffin.
BUUUUUTTT i didn't have blueberries to go with the recipe. So I combined two different recipes. :D the one with walnuts and I changed blueberries to cranberries and.....
but i'm glad i did bake this after all (:
Monday, May 2, 2011
labour day
Spent labour day by not being free but labour-ing for free. *upsetface*
I was given a day to think of music arrangements and to record them later tonight. At this moment, I've no inspirations. Literally starting to freak out. With all the things to do in the house, I'm not sure if i have the energy to do recording. o.O okayyy trying to be in positive mode...
oh yeah, since its a public holiday and all, mum took the liberty to move things around the kitchen. and yes, my kitchen doesn't have permanent cabinets because ever since we moved in, they had not decided how and where and what to do with the kitchen, awesome. Counting this year, we've been here for four years.
Suddenly everyone is away for holidays or is planning for one. I want one too!!! and i need it alot. By holiday, i mean, away, by myself. I need tons of me time.
And I've suddenly took interest in looking at amazing photo works and I'm totally blown away with amazing talents people have to capture those important moments. That's gonna be on my to-learn-list. To learn to capture those moments, and not just that but enhancing it with awesome techniques to do so.
oh well, time to save more moneyy
I was given a day to think of music arrangements and to record them later tonight. At this moment, I've no inspirations. Literally starting to freak out. With all the things to do in the house, I'm not sure if i have the energy to do recording. o.O okayyy trying to be in positive mode...
oh yeah, since its a public holiday and all, mum took the liberty to move things around the kitchen. and yes, my kitchen doesn't have permanent cabinets because ever since we moved in, they had not decided how and where and what to do with the kitchen, awesome. Counting this year, we've been here for four years.
Suddenly everyone is away for holidays or is planning for one. I want one too!!! and i need it alot. By holiday, i mean, away, by myself. I need tons of me time.
And I've suddenly took interest in looking at amazing photo works and I'm totally blown away with amazing talents people have to capture those important moments. That's gonna be on my to-learn-list. To learn to capture those moments, and not just that but enhancing it with awesome techniques to do so.
oh well, time to save more moneyy
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